Something Around the Corner

It’s a rare moment when I am unable to articulate my emotions, but today is this moment, right now is this moment, this week is this moment.  I spent last night in a very weird state, an uncomfortable state.  The last three weeks have been wrapped in this love from Christ that was very surreal, so much that I feared losing it. 

 

And now?  I’ve lost it, which is why I’m in this state.  I felt as though Monday was the beginning, where no matter what happened I was frustrated.  You could’ve breathed by me and I would’ve told you that you breathed the wrong way.  A friend literally tried to make me laugh and I caught myself wanting to just tell him that I don’t want to laugh, I want to sit and soak up my frustration – so I can figure out how to get back to last week.  Who am I?  Seriously, who is this? 

 

So last night, it came over me again as I watched one of my dearest friends crying in frustration.  This was the 5^th person in my life in the past week that has been crying out for some sort of answer, relief, some sort of something.  I left dinner and on the way home my heart broke.  I heard God tell me to be very prayerful.  I heard God warn me of the spiritual warfare.  I heard God ask me to just cling to Him.  I prayed, and there I was, yet again, crying from this passion stirring in my soul.  What is God doing in me?  What is God showing me? 

 

All I know is that something big has to be around the corner.